{addicted}

The first TEN people to comment in this post get to request an icon of any pairing/character of their choosing from me. In return, they have to post this in their journal, regardless of their ability level. If you absolutely can't make icons, I don't see why you wouldn't be able to offer drawings, stories, or something instead.


I'm only really offering since I want something by dumdumdumbutt, but I'll be happy to do what you ask for. I *might* need clarification on your choice of fandom should I not know it, other than that, go for it!

I would offer to draw something, but I'm really no good at drawing, so yeah... Ask if you dare, otherwise go for the icon <_<. Seriously.

I'm really sorry I haven't posted in ages, I don't know why I haven't, I probably could have used this place to vent QUITE A LOT.

Just to say I haven't forgotten this place and that I'll get back on track.

For now, I just have to say one thing.

If anyone sees me up till ridiculously late on IRC and I'm not talking and a certain other twat is in the room, please do me a favour and ban me or something so that I stop arguing with him and get an actual night's sleep.

So angry lately ;.;

Work is shit.

Friends are shit.

Internet is shit.

Everything is shit.

I've been heavilly wanting a punchbag the last couple of months, I'd get to work out anger and work out at the same time. Shame I don't really have anywhere for a punchbag and also can't afford one.

-The End-

Yay another meme from Toneh, stolen from la Waggeh (dumdumdumbutt  ), because they manage to keep my LJ alive when I don't want to post.

10 Years Meme

1) How old were you?
THEN: 12
NOW: 22 *sobs*soold

2) Where did you go to school?
THEN: Keswick National Park School (who managed to rehabilitate me brilliantly to English)
NOW: None, I'm out in the scary world.

3) Where did you work?
THEN: I was in school~
NOW: ASDA, for you Americans, its a British supermarket chain that was recently taken over by Walmart.

4) Where did you live?
THEN: A place called Crosby Villa in the Lake District up North. It was a tiny village of 36 houses on the side of one road, all of which still ran on coal fires.
NOW: My house in Wallasey with mum and mah guinea piggehs.

5) How was your hairstyle?
THEN: Brown and flat.
NOW: Currently black and spiky!

6) Did you wear braces?
THEN: Err no but I did a year later.
NOW: No, but I believe I probably do need some more.

7) Did you wear contacts?
THEN: No.
NOW: Occasionally.

8) Did you wear glasses?
THEN: No.
NOW: Yush.

9) Who was your best friend?
THEN: Pete.
NOW: I have this group of people I'd probably count as best friends, but they all know less about me than people online do, particularly Jesse (_damaged__  )

10) Which of your pets was still alive?
THEN: At the time the closest I had to a pet was next door's kitten, Sooty.
NOW: Two guinea pigs, Cloud and Shadow, my two little babies <3

11) Who was your boyfriend/girlfriend?
THEN: No one~
NOW: Single~

12) Who was your celebrity crush?
THEN: None then at the time.
NOW: TOTALLY AGREED WITH WAGGEH ON JENSEN ACKLES NOM NOM NOM, and, errr, I'm sure there's someone else, or many other people, but I can't think who right now. OH, DARREN HAYES IS ONE. Yeah. And. Errrr. I forget.

13) Who was your regular-person crush?
THEN: Don't think I had one.
NOW: I'm too manly to talk about my crushes!

14) How many piercings did you have?
THEN: None.
NOW: 2 in my earlobe, 1 in my upper ear, one in my nose, and I want one in my eyebrow and one in my lip~

15) How many tattoos did you have?
THEN: None~
NOW: None at this moment, but I'm happilly hoping to have changed that by august.

16) What was your favourite band/singer?
THEN: The Corrs (don't laugh 8D)
NOW: Do I listen to bands today? Erm *checks his CDs* *can't see any* *could be wrong*

17) Had you smoked cigarettes?
THEN: Yup, I started smoking a year beforehand :O
NOW: Nope, not properly. I occasionally have one if I've had too much to drink.

18) Had you got drunk?
THEN: Yar I had, my aunt got me drunk on le Baileys~
NOW: Yarsh. Yarsh. So many times ;_;

19) Had you DRIVEN?
THEN: Yup, my step-dad's brother-in-law taught me to drive in his sexy red Audi on the country lanes of the Lake District.
NOW: Haven't since the above 8D

20) If so which car?
THEN: Check above 8D
NOW: And again check above 8D

21) Looking back are you where you thought you'd be in ten years time?
I didn't really have any plans?

Yeah, I'm a looser methinks. *sigh*

So finally here comes that post I mentioned in my last one, something a bit more real about me instead of just joking around and shite. Its basically just some weird issues with my brain lately, which seems to have given up (or as I jokingly said the other day, is so filled with Final Fantasy trivia and knowledge that its started kicking out other bits it should have).

Its just that my brain basically seems to have given up, I'm increasingly getting this gaps in my memory which means that I might actually end up checking the same thing six or seven times in rapid succession because I almost immediately forget whether or not I've checked it. It wouldn't be so bad if it wasn't for the fact that mum's getting more and more pissed off because I'm running up and down the stairs several times at the end of the night because I simply can't remember whether or not I've closed Cloud and Shadow's cage and the front room windows. I've also had to start ringing my aunt (who lives next door) on my way to work to make sure of the same thing, and it seems to be getting worse all the time.

I've started getting a much larger amount of headaches lately (although funnilly I haven't had one this week). In the past, whilst my headaches are really painful, they literally turn up for 2 minutes at the most, and then I wouldn't usually get one for another 6 months or so, but the last 2 months I've been getting them every couple of days, and then they stay for ages, the longest one lasted about 3 hours a few weeks ago, and that is definately not normal for me.

Worst of all though, I've started stuttering. Now whilst I've had virtually every other speech impediment going (as a child in particular I had a really strong lisp and I also pronounced all my "r"s as "w"s, until about 6 years ago when I actively forced myself not to), stuttering is something I've developed as I've gotten older, but usually I've only gotten it as a form of really bad stress. Now the simple fact is, I'm just not stressed at the moment, I was in January when all this university bullshit came up, but since then there's just simply been nothing, I've got myself sorted, I have a nice loan to take care of my uni debts, everything should be fine. So why the stutter again? And why is it getting worse, last night I worried a girl in work because I was stuttering really quite a lot, but then next minute its gone again.

Yeah, I think my brain is dying on me. Opinions please?

Mmmkay, I wanted to post a serious blog about myself, but for one reason or another I'm finding it hard because it'd probably force me to look at myself, and I don't really want to. So instead we have some light posting stolen straight from shaygr! Thank you Shay for providing me something which totally distracts me!
Have you ever licked the back of a CD to try to get it to work?:
Never heard of this before, so I'll stay with a nice simple "Nuh-uh"
What's the largest age difference between yourself and someone you’ve dated?:
When I was 16 I went out with this guy Ivan (best.name.ever) who was 30, and turned 31 shortly after we got together.
Ever been in a car wreck?:
Does riding my bike into a car at 8 count?
Were you popular in high school?:
I was in that very weird middle-ground where I was popular with the outcasts, but not totally hated by all the cool kids. Quite lucky in that respect.
Have you ever been on a blind date?:
Yes, twice. Still can't decide whether or not I like the idea.

Are looks important?:
Well to a certain degree yes they are. I mean, you wouldn't exactly start dating someone without an initial physical attraction right? I know we all say we value personality more so than looks, but the truth is at the end of the day if there's no immediate attraction you wouldn't try.
Do you have any friends that you've known for 10 years or more??:
I still write to a couple of friends from France (where I left 10 years ago in September, so I'd have known them for more than 10 years), and I regularly talk to a friend from the Lake District I met shortly after coming back to England.
What age would you like to be married?:
*hides his wife behind a pillar*
Does the number of people a person's slept with affect your view of them?:
Not really, as long as they don't sleep around when they're with me, they can have been as sluttastic as they wanted beforehand.
Have you ever made a mistake?:
Of course I have, I'm a freaking human being.

Are you a good tipper?:
Only if the staff have been good.
What's the most you have spent for a haircut?:
I once spent £65 on red highlights which was the worst £65 spent in my life and it reminded me of why I never go to the hairdressers.
Have you ever had a crush on a teacher?:
Yes. Particularly one of my last music teachers in college, Andrew was HOT. And only 23 <3
Have you ever peed in public?:
Not in like full-public like my friend Phil who just got his cock out in the middle of a car-park thing and swore blind he was pissing up against a bus rather discreetly.
What song do you want played at your funeral?:
Madonna - Die Another Day, just for the lulz. But in all seriousness, Roxette - It Must Have Been Love has always been my wedding song, and at my funeral I'd want actually I'm not sure, and its too depressing to think of something, even something funny.
Would you tell your parents if you were gay?:
Mum already knows but she constantly chooses to think I'm bi.

What would your last meal be before getting executed?:
Chocolate tart.
Beatles or Stones?:
Neither really to be honest. But if I was forced to choose one at gunpoint, Stones.
If you had to pick one person on Earth to die, who?:
I DON'T KNOW. I CAN'T PICK SOMEONE WITHOUT SEEMING INCREDIBLY MEAN.
Beer, wine or hard liquor?:
All of the above. Although lately I'm in a wine phase.
Do you have any phobias?:
Spiders, the dark (to a certain degree), and I'm very reluctant answering a phone when I don't know who will be on the other end.

What are your plans for the future?:
Re-evaluating my life as a result of wasting the last four years of my life in study.
Do you walk around the house naked?:
Sometimes, if mum isn't around. And the likes of Shay know all about my walking back home after getting off the nightbus and suddenly deciding that my jeans are chafing too much and need to be removed.
If you were an animal what would you be?:
Kitteh, they're kick ass.
Hair color you like on someone you date?:
No particular hair colour I like. But I like people to have hair, I'm not a big fan of those people who think shaving their head is cool.
Would you rather be blind or deaf?:
I really don't know to be honest. Not sure if I could live without music, but at the same time I'm not sure I could live without seeing.

Do you have any special talents?:
I've got a really big vocal falsetto range when I sing.
What do you do as soon as you walk in the house?:
Take off my shoes, collapse on the sofa, open the laptop and then get on with whatever else needs doing once I've updated everyone as to what I'm doing.
Do you like horror or comedy?:
Horror with comedy, Shaun of the Dead ftw.
Are you missing anyone?:
Not that I know of.
If you weren’t straight, who of the same sex would you date?:
This question is not fair to us puffters.

Where do you want to live when you are old?:
I'm not going to get old. Thats the deal I made with the big girl downstairs.
Who is the person you can count on the most?:
Me, myself, and I.
If you could date any celebrity past or present, who would it be?:
Totally unfair, I have an extremely long shortlist.
What did you dream last night?:
The only dream I can remember was a very partial dream. I was trapped in this mansion with this random girl I don't remember, and we were being stalked by something or someone (dunno who/what), but all we could hear of them were their footsteps following us. And we locked ourselves in this room where there was a safe, and the combination was engraved on it (1212 for some reason), and when it opened up there was this really expensive watch (that I stole), keys to handcuffs which turned out to be handcuffs holding a desk drawer shut on the other side of the room, in which there was a key for the small box in the safe which had a bomb in it. Totally weird and then I woke up.
What is your favorite sport to watch?:
Sport? That word fails to compute.

Are you named after anyone?:
My uncle Tony, who's not really called Tony. Go figure.
What is your favorite alcoholic drink?:
At the moment White Grenache wine.
Non alcoholic drink?:
Chocolate milkshake.
Have you ever been in love?:
Yes.
Do you sing in the shower?:
I sing virtually constantly.

Have you ever been arrested?:
Once, with some of my friends. We were apparently "drunk and disorderly" because we kept on trying to pet the policeman's horse.
What is your favorite Holiday?:
None really. Closest is Easter because I like chocolate.
Would you ever get plastic surgery?:
I'd probably want an arse lift at some point. I don't mean surgical, I'd just like to pay a couple of young fit guys to walk behind me holding it.
Have you ever caught a fish?:
AHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA. No.

And there we go~

"Once upon a time there were three little moogles, and they lived very happilly.
But they were under the watchful eye of evil Tonberries that wanted to slice them up.

The moogles became aware of this, and decided to build a house in which to protect them against the evil Tonberries with their sharp knives.
The three little moogles, however, couldn't agree on building materials for their house, and so decided to build them seperately.

The first little moogle built his house from straw, and thought he was perfectly safe.
The Tonberry's knife, however, was much too sharp for the straw house, and sliced through it with ease, and so the little moogle ran to the next house.

This house the moogle had made of wood, and was much sturdier than the last house.
Unfortunately, it was still no match for the Tonberry's mighty knife, which sliced through the wooden planks just as easily as the straw house, and the two little moogles fled to the third house, built with bricks by the last little moogle.

This house did not slice open upon the attack of the Tonberry, and instead shattered the Tonberry's knife.
All the souls the knife had claimed from the Tonberry's famous 'Karma' attack were released, and consumed the Tonberry in a ironic twist of fate.

The three little moogles lived happilly ever after, safe in their little brick house from the onslaught of evil Tonberries.
-The End-"

My little bed-time story created for Rudy on IRC, got bored so thought I'd post it here.

Totally not weird am I.

Totally stolen from La Waggeh (dumdumdumbutt) and Miss Shay (shaygr), because I have no original ideas of my own.

So as of about an hour ago, I'm technically no longer in debt. I recently decided to make a rather mature decision, and consolidate my overdraft and credit card that I got from the bank for when I went to university and settle it into a loan. Its a nice feeling to know that I can look at my account details now and see that I'm in credit on my account, as opposed to in debit. I mean sure, I'm still having to pay back a loan every month, but its not technically classed as a credit debt, so its like WOOHOO!

My repayments are slightly uncomfortable though, what with one thing and another I'm going to have to do a bit more regular overtime in work to be able to afford..well anything other than paying back debts. Its funny actually, I've got a nice easy system now, panic for the next 6 months paying back two debts side-by-side, since I also have to pay back a stupid £500 on a university grant overpayment. But once those 6 months are over, I should be a lot better off. I'm just waiting for some horrible setback, which is usually what happens when something good like this turns up.

I give it till the end of the month before something horrible happens. Just you see.

So it seems that I'm not as gay as I thought I was. I've found out from subtle asking of people, that approximately 90% of people who meet me for the first time don't realise I'm gay until I either tell them, or they've known me for a few months. I just always assumed that I act a lot gayer than I must do in normal situations, due to the way I tend to "gay it up" when I'm around large groups of friends I'm comfortable with (kinda like an automatically assumed role).

But anyway, after having conversations from people over the last few weeks, I've discovered that I'm apparently not that easy to peg as gay, especially in my work environment. This is actually something that makes me quite happy, as I've never been a fan of those gay people who basically act like women in men's bodies, and I've always been very aware of the possibility I may end up like that (a flaming queen is definately something I don't want to be), so yeah.

This is my attempt at injecting some life into LJ....

Also, I hope everyone had a good Christmas and a Happy New Year, or at least generally better than mine (although getting drunk at New Year was fun, haven't had a good drinking session in a while).

Totally crossing this over from my DeviantART where I stole it from Waggeh in the first place.

Your boy side

[x] You love hoodies. (I especially love HOODIE TSHIRTS! ZOMG)
[x] You love jeans. (*owns too many jeans*)
[ ] Dogs are better than cats (Cats rule bitches)
[x] It's hilarious when people get hurt. (Defo!)
[x] You've played with/against boys on a team. (Seems like such a long time ago. I always found it weird that macho boys enjoy sports that just involve mass groping of one another)
[/] Shopping is torture. (Depends who you go with)
[ ] Sad movies suck. (I do like sad movies quite often)
[ ] You own an x-box. (*shudder*)
[x] Played with hot wheels cars as a kid. (I used to throw them at My Little Pony toys owned by friends 8D)
[x] At some point in time you wanted to be a firefighter. (I wanted a big hose)
[x] You own a DS, PS2 or Sega. (I still own all three o_O *has a Gamegear in a box upstairs)
[x] You used to be obsessed with Power Rangers. (Dear god yes. Up until Power Rangers Turbo, I started getting a bit over it by then.)
[ ] You watch sports on TV. (I don't see the point)
[x] Gory movies are cool. (Mmmmgore)
[ ] You go to your dad for advice. (I'm not a medium, or even a small, so no.)
[ ] You own like a trillion baseball caps. (I have beanies 8D)
[ ] You like going to football games. (Ewwww)
[ ] You used to/do collect baseball cards. (Ew no)
[x] Baggy pants are cool to wear. (<3 Teh Baggy Pants)
[ ] It's kinda weird to have sleepovers with a bunch of people. (Bwah?)
[x] Green, black, red, blue, or silver are one of your favorite colors. (Black, Blue and Silver ftw <3)
[x] You love to go crazy and not care what people think. (*burns the orphanage down* wut?)
[ ] Sports are fun. (Nutreally)
[x] Talk with food in your mouth. (All the time)
[x] You wear boxers. (Bockzarz ftw <3)

Total = 14.5 (same as Waggeh o_O)

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Your girl side

[ ] You wear lip gloss. (I've been known to. Lindsey's mint-flavoured lip-plumping gloss <3)
[/] You love to shop. (Depends on who with, why and what for.)
[x] You wear eyeliner. (Everytime I go out drinking)
[x] You have some of the same shirts in different colors. (Yup, if I see something I like, I buy in every colour available)
[x] You wear the color pink. (I'm comfortable enough with my masculinity to wear pink)
[/] You go to your mom for advice. (Occasionally)
[x] You consider cheerleading a sport (I thought it was?)
[ ] You hate wearing the color black. (<3 Black)
[ ] You like hanging out at the mall. (This is an unfair question on British people with a different subculture)
[ ] You like getting manicures and/or pedicures. (Kinda creepy having someone fuss over your extremeties)
[x] You like wearing jewelry. (Ear piercings, nose piercing, rings, neck and wrist jewelry <3)
[ ] Skirts are a big part of your wardrobe. (Lulzno)
[ ] Shopping is one of your favorite hobbies. (Nutreally)
[ ] You don't like the movie star wars. (<3)
[ ] You are/were in cheerleading, gymnastics or dance. (Get away!)
[x] It takes you around 1 hour to shower, get dressed, and put on make-up and accessories. (Doing all that takes me like 3 hours, showering itself takes me at least an hour)
[x] You smile a lot more than you should. (Happy happy smiley smiley)
[ ] You have more than 10 pairs of shoes. (I used to, but dumped 8 pairs the other day)
[x] You care about what you look like. (Need to lose mah belleh!)
[ ] You like wearing dresses when you can. (Dresses are for GIRLS)
[x] You like wearing body spray/perfume/cologne. (Well I dun't wanna be smelly?)
[ ] You wear girl underwear. (Errrrnoooooooooo)
[x] Used to play with dolls as little kid. (Tee-hee, yes (strange story but I used to get my friends' Barbie and Ken to hump!))
[ ] Like putting make-up on someone else for the joy of it. (Nowai!)
[ ] Like taking pictures of yourself with your cell phone/camera when you're bored. (I ain't no camera-whore betch!)

Total= 11

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Overall, quite close really wasn't it? Oh well, according to that I'm a boy, which I'm glad to know. Though I would have thought the lack of boobs and the cock might have been enough proof for some people.

Do  people remember my post about my need to get fit/lose weight?

http://tonykm.livejournal.com/10883.html

Yeah so that totally failed. Since that post I've actually put on 1 stone (6.5ish kilos).

I don't even know why, I've been eating more healthilly, and excercising more, and yet I'm not converting to muscle (its defintely fat mass and not muscle mass).

*sob*

Also... =3 is all I will say, its kinda linked to my last post about men being bastards.

Men are bastards. That is all.

Quite simple, I hate my friends (as in my real non-internet friends).

We're supposed to be going camping (see. 8 young adults sharing tents and lots of booze) again this year, and we all agreed to do it the last week of august/anytime in september because we'll all be in the country, and we all have less issues about being able to make it.

They therefore decide to go and book it from August 19th until August 23rd, despite the fact that some of us said we definately couldn't make any of August before the 24th.

I hate the bastards <_<

You know what, I fucking hate this, it happens every bloody year at the same time and I've had enough. Just as I'm getting to grips with the fact that I have that evil mild form of hayfever that isn't as bad as some people's but is insanely irritating for me, and I finally remember to take my pills for it every day, I get a bloody cold just as the weather starts to get good.

WHAT THE HELL IS WITH THAT?

I'm sitting here, the weather outside is g.o.r.g.e.o.u.s, and every five seconds I'm sniffing because my nose is blocked. To make matters worse I wake up first thing in the morning and it feels like I've swallowed a hedgehog. The other morning I woke up and my mouth was so dry my tongue felt raspier than a cat's. Just for the fun of it I kept on licking (and I use the term loosely really) my arm, and it felt like I was dragging sandpaper down it. Not pleasant.

In other news, I'm having the weekend off going out I think, since the only offers I've had to go out have required me to travel a half hour journey in 5 minutes after work, and of course I can't actually do that. In fact, an invitation to go out tonight requires me to complete a half hour journey to where we're supposed to meet three and a half hours before I finish work >.<

Still in love with my new laptop <3

So my new laptop is here, it took a week less than what they said so all is good. All I can say is that its bloody sexy. I currently have it connected to my old HDD in order to get some of the important files I want *coughcoughIRCrightnowcoughcough*.

Can I just say, Windows Vista is WEIRD. This is my first use of it, I'm sure I'll get used to it, but WEIRD.

I've fallen in love with the random built-in camera on the laptop though, I'm using it as a kind of technological mirror right now to try and flatten my hair.

I just need to wait for Vista to stop being a bitch and auto-scanning every folder I try to open on my old HDD with its anti-virus software before allowing me access to it.

<3 having a laptop again

Okay 2 months, I've done worse than this before. Time for a bit of necromancy.

*swirly black magic and ta-dah, blog is revived*

So I'm totally bypassing all news from the last couple of months and instead will mention one thing.

I. Fucking. Hate. Laptops.

I. REALLY. Fucking. Hate. Laptops.

Why?

Simple, I've somehow managed to break yet another laptop, making this the second laptop in the space of 5 years to have broken in my care. I'm not entirely sure what it is that I do with them but they enjoy breaking very quickly. Bastards.

So now I have this new laptop on order right, but its going to take like 3 weeks to get here, and 3 years for me to pay off. Just fucking ridiculous.

Hopefully this time I'll get one that can stand the amount of use it'll get from me. At least I have the spare keyboard now in case it ever decides to die on me...

Okay so I just finished this week's sunday lunch and I just realised that food really is a great way to a guy's heart.

So this very short post is to say this:

If a guy can make me a nice roast dinner, I'm his.

*is so not cheap*

Okay, its been a month since I last posted, but thats not entirely my fault. My internet has been a total skankwhore so I've only managed to be online like... not much for the entire month of february.

Okay, so I decided last night there was a party with people from work to celebrate Jo's birthday, and we were all dressed up in fancy dress and shit, and I'd finally decided to tell Andy that I liked him, to get it out in the open, be rejected and move on (great plan eh?). Talk about a plan going tits up, I got off the night bus at the stop he'd normally get off at, only to find on he's stayed on for an extra stop because he decided at the last minute that he'd go to this house-party at Jenny's which he'd originally said he wasn't going to. I was so pissed off with the fact that that happened that I didn't even bother walking the like 3 minute walk to the next bus stop to re-join the party where everyone was.

I am such a sad bloody tosser, why can't I get over people without actually telling them that I like them.

<_<, grow a bloody backbone Tony...

Other than that, the night was really really fun. It turns out that dressing up as a cowboy at a nightclub is a sure-fire way to get groped to hell, though thats not so much a bad problem XD. Men and women alike kept on feeling me up, asking me to strip, told me I should have just worn chaps but not my jeans, setting me up for scary photo-ops and shit, although from the photo point of view I didn't get quite as much as Dave, who was dressed up as Jack Sparrow, everyone was like "OH MY GOD ITS JACK SPARROW, WE NEED TO GET A PICTURE OF HIM!!!!".

A good night, just slightly off at the end, but good.